She

Why did she put aside her ego and self-respect for that one person? Why is it so difficult to let go, while that should be the easiest thing to do. As a great master said, holding something is like a burden; the thing being held has a weight… instead try dropping it, you will be weight-free. She wished it was as easy as saying those words.

Evasive butterfly… she dint want to cut its wings for she knew how beautiful those wings are.

The more she knows, the more she gets entangled, and then the more it hurts her! She feels his pain, if only he knew it! She hates it that he should have gone through all that he did, even if she only had glimpses; but it pains her that he did. But the way to recovery is in one’s hands – only that person can help themselves! When one knows that something is a problem, knowing that it is a problem is the first step to redemption! And if she is offering a hand, if she is willing to reach out to him, how can he not know that? How can he not recognize that she does not want to take anything from him. Everyone has been doing that to him, but there is that one who is not looking to take anything from him, but only give him in abundance. Has his brain become so fuzzy and his sight so veiled by the ill-meaning of others that he cannot even sense that she wishes only good for him?

What he thought would never work, would have worked if he peeped in deeper. She doesn't know why she is persevering on reaching out and stuck on her thoughts so much. She can’t even open talk to anyone. She dislikes this noise. She dislikes that she is feeling all this when he doesn't even bother to know!

How hard surfaced has his heart and perception become?! She only keeps wishing that it is all after all a bad dream.

How?!

what happens when the meaning of the word "faith" gets mixed up with religion or rather "being religious"... when the only expression that you have ever known in your faith is to love and that too unconditionally.

when you are not understood and worse still not given a chance to speak... when all that matters is the self of the other... when it is so easy for people to hurt you.. when people are afraid of confrontation... when people are afraid of their own fears... 

when people turn so self-centered that they dont think about how insensitive they have been towards you and your feelings... when all that matters is only ME rather than WE... when you will to give but the other refuses to take... when you look like an idiot while not thinking about yourself but only about the other... when the other does not make any effort to understand this!

when the other hates letting everyone know... when the other wants you to talk directly and yet does not give you a chance... when the other refuses to acknowledge... when the other knew it all along and yet kept dragging...

when the other assumes that you wont understand, while you actually can understand with some back reference... when the other thinks that you dont have any back reference! when the other is only to bothered to nurse their wounds!

when all the dreams are built on foundations and basis provided by the other... but then suddenly the other backs off... without a word... without a heart! shattering dreams, shattering the wishes of so many people, shattering the core of not just that one - you - but the other's self too!!

you idiot! how could you?! konchum kuda anbu illeya unnaku? anba vittu tallu.. manasu illeya onnaku? konchum kuda nenaichu parkaliye ni?

gifting?

Buy baby diapers n blah blah.. 51% off! Ok. So?

Sometimes these ads that come on your emails, baffle you. Really, what do they have in their mind when they send you these mails? No, I don’t want my baby to use a diaper.. I am traditional, I believe in using old soft cotton cloth. Common, tell me, now what do you want to do?

Woah woah! U say.. haha.. no, I don’t know no kids of my own! ;)

I am just plainly amused by what I see 'n' what I get :D

But, with the number of baby births and the number of friends about to deliver, I wonder if such offers would come in handy. It is confusing to buy gifts for two kinds of people: guys and babies :P yeah right!! :D

After a point, I fall short of ideas of what to gift a guy friend on his birthday or wedding anniversary or whatever! Ok, Watch – he has more than one! Perfume – what if he doesn’t like the smell! Belt – he already has one! N plus, I don’t know his waist size! Blah! Shirt – I just gifted him one last year! Pen – how many really use the pen these days! Book – ditto as the perfume, maybe the smell included :D Gift voucher – oh! That would tell him my budget too! N so on n so forth!

Similarly, for babies.. new born – buy a rug.. ok, they have many.. buy toys – which probably parents would admire more than the kids.. buy some baby soap n powder n all.. ok…what else? Sweater – what if the quality is not up to the mark n the kid is sensitive! Clothes – ok.. not bad, but the kid would out-grow it in no time.. n so on n so forth.. :)

N then when I saw this diaper ad – I was wondering how many of my friends would be okay if I got them diapers for their babies.. would that be a good ‘gift’? Common, it is as useful as you can think!

So, mommies to be.. or mommies already… let me know.. tell me if that would make your life a lil easier :) else suggest something… will you! Puhleeezz!!

Love you mommies.. n love you lil bundles! :)