Why did she
put aside her ego and self-respect for that one person? Why is it so difficult
to let go, while that should be the easiest thing to do. As a great master
said, holding something is like a burden; the thing being held has a weight…
instead try dropping it, you will be weight-free. She wished it was as easy as
saying those words.
Evasive
butterfly… she dint want to cut its wings for she knew how beautiful those
wings are.
The more she
knows, the more she gets entangled, and then the more it hurts her! She feels
his pain, if only he knew it! She hates it that he should have gone through all
that he did, even if she only had glimpses; but it pains her that he did. But
the way to recovery is in one’s hands – only that person can help themselves! When one
knows that something is a problem, knowing that it is a problem is the first
step to redemption! And if she is offering a hand, if she is willing to reach
out to him, how can he not know that? How can he not recognize that she does
not want to take anything from him. Everyone has been doing that to him, but
there is that one who is not looking to take anything from him, but only give him
in abundance. Has his brain become so fuzzy and his sight so veiled by the
ill-meaning of others that he cannot even sense that she wishes only good for him?
What he thought
would never work, would have worked if he peeped in deeper. She doesn't know
why she is persevering on reaching out and stuck on her thoughts so much. She can’t even
open talk to anyone. She dislikes this noise. She dislikes that she is feeling
all this when he doesn't even bother to know!
How hard
surfaced has his heart and perception become?! She only keeps wishing that it is
all after all a bad dream.
Girly, this isn't the first time that something like that has happened, has it? Breathe! Calm your mind, it's difficult, but you have to let go. No point bothering yourself so much na? Send good thoughts your way. Hugs.
ReplyDelete@Pallavi.. she is on the way there... she will be fine soon :) thanks for the wishes... m sure ur hug will shoo away her blues.. will tell her :)
DeleteWoow...read this after days after you've written it. It's beautiful. Heart-wrenching, but beautiful! Love you girl! :)
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Delete@peeves... thanks :) n i love u too :) hugs <3
DeleteWhy have you deleted the first reply? And because of the deletion, it really intrigues me, so I want to know what it contained.
Deletei wrote a line with thanks n then submitted it n then the love n hugs n submitted again.. became 2 replies.. so put it all in one n posted it :)
DeleteHehehe! Okay. :) But who's the "she" really?
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